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Hello. I am experiencing numbness and emotional disconnection from my life for about a year and two months. I went through some trauma, I was raped and had to close my business as a result of not being able to focus on my business because of the rape and all of the subsequent feelings. I was ok for a few months, but then I took a hit (an accidentally very very large hit) of weed and I instantly felt this awful ungrounded feeling that disconnected me to all of the things in my life that I was emotionally connected too- relationships, situations, everything. Ever since then, I feel like I am floating in the ocean with no anchor. I don’t feel connected to my life at all and I have this painful emptiness that I feel in my gut any my chest. I can actually feel that it is connected to my brain when I follow where the feeling is sourced from. In my opinion of being in my body, I disconnected something in my brain that emotionally connected me to my life. It is scary and hard. I am going to start EFT hopefully this week. I am just so tired of feeling this nothingness when I used to feel so alive and connected to my life.

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Hi Moonbeing! Welcome to the boards and nice to meet you. I am sorry things are so quiet here these days. By the way, you have a beautiful moniker.

But more importantly, I am sorry about what you went through.  Do you think that something happened when you took the accidental large hit that brought you face to face with your trauma? In the sense that you could not ignore the disconnection that that trauma had created within you any longer?

To some extent, I can relate to the floating feeling to becoming disconnected from everything life like, etc. But in my case, the traumatic stuff that brought about the disconnection was (most likely) a repeat of much older stuff, things that had happened earlier in my life, when I was small (years of therapy have helped me articulate that).  So in a sense the trauma only brought out in the open what had already been there for a long time. I am not saying this is the case with you. But just sharing my experience in case it also helps in some way.

I do hope that you get the help you need and deserve.

Take care!

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