what i've discussed with my T regarding dependency is that i don't want to become dependent on him. for the whole need/annoying/dependent thing as well as the "this issa gonna have to end" thing. you want me to attach knowing full-well this is gonna end? huh? it's a whole 'nother struggle and there are threads out there regarding this.
why do we feel so much shame and loathing because of therapy? right now i'm feeling pissed that we have been brain-washed into feeling ashamed and self-loathing for getting help for ourselves. what the hell?!? maybe that's what your T meant, erica: that despite the fact that you've been made to believe that it's shameful to get help when you need it, you go anyway. that IS brave! it defies the messed-up thinking that you've been made to believe. so ... there!
what you've said IS relevant and thank you for sharing your dependency experience