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was it hard to accept that you were dependent on T once you discovered you were? did you fight the dependency? deny it? etc. any thoughts are appreciated.

Yes, I hated this aspect of therapy and fought it in various ways. In the end, I think I understand it a little differently than I did when I started.

There are two parts of dependency in therapy, as far as I'm concerned: the FEELINGS of dependency, and ACTUAL dependency. The FEELINGS of dependency are usually leftover from experiences when we were young, and could be understood as a kind of transference. Through allowing ourselves to feel them, we can start to understand and work through them.

ACTUAL dependency means that you're unable to live your life without close support from a T or other person, without resorting to negative coping mechanisms. In the case of ACTUAL dependency in therapy, you will need to develop better self-regulation, emotional tolerance, or coping skills before you can move away from it.