((((Beebs))))) I am glad that you heard back from him and that he was clearly so affirming. I understand that pain, not all tears are bitter nor is all sadness. It's a real loss and you are entitled to your grief. I am sorry you are in pain but glad that you can feel. Try and take in both his care and the understanding that you did nothing wrong. Wish I could be there to hold you while you cry, dear one. Take good care of yourself and be gentle while you grieve. I will pray for peace and comfort.
love, Aglet