hi, Coco. i took the cowardly route and sent an email. then we talked about it, a little. we had actually talked about transference prior to that. it was more of a negative transference then, though (of which i still struggle ... i like HIM, it's more of an issue with authorigy figures of which he fits the bill). the email was more of an unveiling of my feelings of attachment towards him. i knew if i didn't sent an email i'd never actually bring it up myself in session so it's not like i had much of a choice. i HAD to do something because like you, he was ALL i could think about and it became rather excruciating. i know your feelings of embarassment and being scared, but this is what therapy really is about, is the relationship between you and your T. i hate it, too. but that is what it's about, and i still have to remind myself of that. you can do it, and trust me you'll be glad you did. the intense longing has eased a LOT though it can still rear it's head, but not so strong anymore. that may change, but i took the first step and it helped alot. i hope this helps. i dont' know what else to say. i wish you the best of luck in whatever you decide to do, but i do encourage you to discuss this with your T. it'll be a scary session to go to, but you'll be so glad you brought it up afterwards. good luck and hugs!