Ugh, I thought by getting married, I would be done with these types of feelings (feelings of heart break). I've been married for 8 years and I haven't felt like this for about 12 years. I'm trying to convince myself that I still love my wife. I've done a good job of making my T and my wife believe that I still love my wife. I'm putting on a great act. Every time I look at my wife, I think about my misplaced feelings. I wish I could redirect the feelings I have for my T towards my wife.
Thanks again.