Hi AG,

I appreciate your concern. I was holding my own space in that interaction with my mentor. and received good advice from this forum on what it was I was dealing with - which helped me to hold my space.

Yeah, sure, there is a lot more being uncovered and this is not just a simple release. It is one of the many layers in releasing myself from the chains that bind. I trust the Divine to present the opportunities to bring me closer to my true nature and release me from the past patterns of defence and entrenched defensive behaviour.

I hear your concern about countertransference and can only bring myself back to trust the process of life - which is in essence a therapeutic experience when I learn from my mistakes and celebrate my Truth. You must remember that we are no longer in a one to one therapeutic relationship. We are travelling together at this point into places that feel uncertain - and I trust myself to know and when I dont, I trust myself to find my way through and find the words and the questions to ask.

Here I am explaining myself and my experience of life and trying to justify something that is outside of "normal" procedure. This is my whole life - being on the outside of normal - trying to look and be normal, instead of the truth of who I am and what I feel. I feel I have a greater chance to find myself in this way than through other ways on offer that I know of. It is a risk and an adventure, and the people I am with are far more willing to turn their tools on themselves and to grow and learn with me and from me. That feels like the Truth to me.

Perhaps I am on a dangerous tangent - and so be it. However, I am willing to take the risk to feel alive and deeply connected and conscious.

Thank you for speaking up and providing me with an opportunity for reflection and the chance to hold my own sacred point of view in the face of a different opinion, and to speak my Truth - the things I know from my experience - often wildly different from others. However, I have found over time that I can appreciate and really value both the unity and the diversity I share with other people as we relate with our Truth in the moment. I feel connected and yet can appreciate my own talents and potential. At those times, I believe peace is possible.

Speak your Truth so that you may hear.
Em