Hi AG and JM and others,

just thought I would write in to let you know how I am travelling. I found myself with friends and someone I am working with as a mentor. As we spent the day together, I became aware of an inner state of tension, as my mentor was paying attention to another friend. The others began to eat lunch and I separated myself off to experience my feelings - becoming stronger each moment. I realised that I really needed my mentor to come. My friend who was there with me, supporting me, said did I want her to get the mentor. I immediately recognised the moment was about attachment and declined. In the needing, I was able to experience and release the held body memory of needing and not getting - through a rather loud involuntary sound. Felt good to me! As the waves subsided, my mentor entered the room and my friend left. When asked my mentor said to me that she didnt feel to come into the room until the actual time that she did. The circumstances were in Divine timing. We talked and moved on with the day.

There may be more energy to be released on this trauma, however, for me this now means that there is less in the way in my friendship with my T. I spent the evening with her and her family the other night, which was very relaxing. It is interesting how I had chosen a T, who has similarities to my mother/parents, including in some ways the way she relates to her partner. The universe works in mysterious ways to provide reflections of who we are.

I am still aware of the presence of sexual energy in thinking about my T and at times being in her presence. I believe this is part of the next layer of "stuff" wanting to move so that the life force that has been repressed can be allowed its right of passage - ie energy for living and loving and full expression of who I am in the world. I look forward to a weekend womens workshop being conducted by my T, to see what will emerge from the deep dark ravines of the Goddess.

May the Truth be with You and speak through you.

Em.