Absolutely. I’ve done the same thing (Googling street view), and I like how you put it “feeling sad that he (she) is living his (her) life without me.” That is exactly how I feel. My T runs too and I often imagine her and me running together. It is a part of her I strongly desire to have, but I know that I can’t. The feelings are so conflictual, but once again running to the safety of their professional boundaries is so very secure and exactly where we need to be.
I hope it helps to know you are understood and not alone and that you are feeling less annoyed with yourself. It is part of the territory for some clients. Don’t be too hard on yourself.
You also said something very insightful when you mentioned that you are using it to avoid something. Some of us have realized that to be true. Some of us recognize that transference (which is feeling the past in the present) seems to stir up whenever we are about to traverse into something very big from the deep abyss of our past. You will learn to work with it, but until then, take it easy on yourself. This is ok. Think roller coaster... and sometimes Demon Drop.
BTW: When is your next appointment with your T? We all sort of keep a running countdown between appointments.
Oh yeah, I’ve been meaning to ask the obvious question per your screen name: Do you run? I love to run although I do not do so as much as I would like to or as well as I used to when I was in high school.
Talk to you later,
JM