Thanks Guys, I have felt more concern through these posts than I have felt in a long time...but it still feels like my heart has been ripped out by a bear...I can't think, eat or sleep...I just keep calling his office to hear his voice on the machine...So much for managing my stress right? I don't know if I can talk to someone else about him...if I do I may just be hurt again...I wanna just go off somewhere and sleep for a few hundred years. Thanks so much for taking me in and making me feel like I had some people that actually care about me...and I know you all do...but I don't deserve any friends. This is what I get for falling for some old married man when I have one at home that I know loves me and takes care of me, even though he is having a tough time right now..I'll try to talk again soon, I just need some time to myself to deci=de if I really want another T or not...I'll be around, Charlotte