GOD I NEED SOMEONE TO HELP ME!!!!...I FEEL LIKE LIKE I'M DYING....I AM DEVESTATED BEYOND DEVESTAION!!!..MY T "TERMINATED" ME YESTERDAY!!..I NEVER GOT TO SAY ANYTHING OTHER THAN HELLO...AND HE STRAIGHT OUT TOLD ME THAT HE HAD TO LET ME GO...THAT "OUR" RELATIONSHIP WAS GETTING IN THE WAY...CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT???...I ABOUT DIED...I CRIED AND CRIED FOR 50 MINUTES BEGGING HIM TO GIVE IT A FEW MORE WEEKS...I TOLD HIM THAT I KNEW IT WAS JUST TRANSFERENCE AND THAT I COULD NEVER HAVE HIM...BUT THEN I WONDERED ON THE WAY HOME...DO YOU THINK IT WAS JUST TRANSFERENCE ON MY SIDE?? BECAUSE HE HAD TOLD ME THAT IF HIS FEELINGS EVER CHANGED (HE TOLD ME THAT DAY I CONFESSED TO HIM THAT HE COULDN'T RETURN THE FEELINGS) HE WOULD HAVE TO LET ME GO...I WAS DEVESTATED...I BEGGED AND BEGGED HIM...HE TOLD ME HE WOULD GIVE ME 2 OPTIONS... I SEE A THERAPIST SOMEWHERE ELSE (FEMALE ONLY)AND HE WOULD RECCOMMEND ONE... OR I SEE A THERAPIST THAT WORKS THERE IN THE OFFICE FOR HIM...(FEMALE ONLY) AND HE WOULD KEEP UP WITH MY SUCCESS AND SUPERVISE HER WORK..AND GET THIS..HE TOLD ME THAT I SHOULD CALL HIM TODAY TO MAKE SURE I WAS OKAY AND GIVE HIM MY ANSWER...I CRIED ALL NIGHT...TOOK 2 NOT 1 BUT 2 SLEEPING PILLS AND STILL WAS AWAKE AT 4:30AM...I DROVE AROUND FOR 5 HOURS LAST NIGHT AND DRANK 3 LARGE CHOCOLATE MILKSHAKES...THEY COMFORT ME DURING STRESSING TIMES...AND I HAVE HAD 1 TODAY...I TRIED TO POST THIS TO YOU LAST NIGHT, BUT I WAS TOO UPSET...MY TEARS WERE FLOWING ON THE KEYBOARD JUST LIKE THEY ARE NOW...I CALLED HIM THIS MORNING AND HE TOOK MY CALL RIGHT THEN (THAT NEVER HAPPENS) AND I TOLD HIM I WAS SORRY THAT MY FEELINGS CAUSED THIS AND HE SAID I WAS NOT TO BLAME...WHAT AM I GONNA DO WITHOUT HIM GUYS...THAT WAS MY WHOLE PURPOSE IN LIFE RIGHT NOW ...I CHOSE TO STAY WITH A THERAPIST IN HIS OFFICE SO THAT I COULD SEE HIM EVERY WEEK...I HOPE THAT WAS THE RIGHT CHOICE!! HE TOLD ME HE WAS GLAD I DECIDED TO DO THAT, BECAUSE IT SHOWED I WANTED HELP AND YESTERDAY I HAD TOLD HIM I WOULD NEVER GO TO ANOTHER THERAPIST TO BE KICKED TO THE CURB AGAIN...HE ASKED ME IF I TRUSTED HIM TO HELP ME..I TOLD HIM YES, THAT'S THE ONLY REASON I TOLD HIM MY FEELINGS. HE SAID HE WAS SO GLAD I DID, BUT HE HAD ALREADY PICKED UP ON IT, BUT I NEEDED TO TRUST HIM NOW. HE SAID HE WANTED TO KEEP ME SAFE AND HELP ME.....BUT HE HAD TO DO IT FROM THE SIDELINES...WELL MY BREAK IS OVER AND I GOTTA RUN...I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO HERE ANY SUGGESTIONS????...HE IS SUPPOSE TO CALL ME BACK TOMORROW WITH DETAILS...I AM SO STRESSED...IT WASN'T SUPPOSE TO GO LIKE THIS???? WHAT HAPPENED...I CAN'T EVEN HAVE TRANFERENCE CORRECTLY...I DO EVERYTHING WRONG...TALK TO YOU LATER...CHARLOTTE
