Starfish, it seems like you really did need to unpack some of that awful stuff, though, but it seems to me from what people posted above, that what you are now experiencing is a perfectly normal response. There is nothing wrong with you...you are doing everything the right way, just believe your T's words, when she tells you that it will certainly take time. You can't do all at once, it is far too much! Little steps, one day at a time, then maybe from time to time a bigger step, then slow down again...that is the way to go. You will reach that summit...and stretch all 5 pointy little arms out in the sunshine!
((((Starfish, and all))))))))

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