Hi Mayo.

Thanks for your response. Sounds like you have an excellent T. While I'm not a victim of sexual or physical abuse, I am a victim of having been emotionally starved by my family. I, too, am afraid of myself and terrified of rejection.

The more I think about this, the more I'm starting to really feel that what happens between us and our T is the point upon which success or failure depends. Relative to when I started, I've opened myself up a ton to my T, but I still don't feel him as a real person, which tells me that the wall is still in place.

All my reading on and thinking about anxiety and depression and the unconscious and the ego and the self, etc, etc...I wonder if I'm missing the point, and I think I'm gonna continue to suffer until that wall comes down.

Russ