quote:I know he will incorporate physical contact as a tool in this with me, but it is clear to me it is not intended as a regular part of our interactions...ie, he will not greet me with a hug or hold my hand for the sake of it...because that would suggest a level of casual intimacy that is not there. But hell I want him to...I want the relationship to be such that all that is acceptable. It hurts that it never will be and this is what I am there to explore.
This expresses something really important and subtle. I have the feeling that just providing casual intimacy would allow us to disconnect from the pain - and from the work of the pain - which would allow the pain to just disappear and resurface to wreak havoc in the rest of lives....
Thank you.
Jones