I understand some of how you must be feeling, not all of it because no one can really understand another's unique situation, feelings and emotions. Apart from my psych that is who gets into my head like no one has ever done before!!
Sometimes I find being in groups difficult. I write a little and try and support on here but that may change as I get more confident. Sometimes and with some people in some places, I don't feel that what I am saying is being listened too or that it is worth being listened too. Sometimes I would rather be left alone, find it difficult to trust and I have been in denial and hiding all my life where some things are concerned.
You are not alone but you have been courageous enough to start this new thread.
Good to meet you Puppet.
Caroola