I'm so sorry I've been absent from the boards over the past few days. I've been exhausted beyond belief and emotionally fragile to boot. Responding is getting harder and harder.
I did see T on Saturday and had 'the talk.' I did preface it with "I think this has more to do with me than with you." He was pretty much on point with his response, neither admitting or denying whatever feelings he might have. Talk about relief!
We did discuss ET in general and how it plays out in therapy. He was very interested to hear how I thought our connection had deepened recently. I thought the conversation would take all session, but we actually blew through it pretty quickly. Maybe it helped that I was so tired - it was almost like I was emotionally numb.
I told my T that I was doing more to practice emotional regulation in regard to my ET (inspired by one of AG's recent blog posts. Thanks!!!), and that it was helping. But today is a new day, and being emotionally vulnerable on Saturday has brought a new wave of heat to the battle. Sigh.
For all of you.