do you think you will being it up - the possibility of his counter-transference? I really don't know how you manage it aye (meant in an admiration kind of way not a judgement way!)... I couldn't even cope with the idea of seeing a male T; the even vaguest hint or possibility of the opposite sex having any feelings of attraction for me, in even the most benign way really really scares the hell out of me (in a trauma induced way)...
Whn do you see your T next?