Hello y'all! I'm new to this whole website and even though I'm in therapy, I'm one of those people who just needs all the support they can get. I grew up with an alcoholic father, and despite his illness he was an amazing dad when he was sober. He passed away when I was 14 and 6 years later, I'm still traumatized by the things I experienced growing up. He was never abusive towards me or my mother or my older brother and sisters, but I guess you can say he did put us all through some heavy emotional abuse. I struggle with abandonment because of him and my mom only cos she couldn't really be the mother she wanted to be for her kids cos she was so focused on trying to get my dad better. Even now that I'm 20 years old and away at college, I find myself still latching on to strong older female figures, including my T. While my T is wonderful and fantastic, (despite the rough patch I've hit with her recently) I feel like I can really push through all the trauma and struggles by reaching out to people who have gone through similar things as me. What a relief to finally be able to be surrounded by people like me and who would probably understand me more than people who have known me for years! I don't know why it took me so long to join one of these thingies