It's difficult to read at times for me too em. It's hard, but I try to separate the fact gathering process from the emotional process. For me, the grieving somes after the knowledge has set in. I think I am going to have some of this book memorized soon... my T has been on vacation so I have been trying to keep myself busy reading!!! I bet I am going to overwhelm the crap out of her on Wednesday with all of my new info from this book!