Hi sadly and room2grow - I resonate so much with what you say, and can hear you understand the pain I'm going through. The counting of days. I'm allowed to email her as much as I want and she always responds, even if it's just once a day to say Hi and that she is there... but at the end of my last session, while we were making the next appointment she only then told me that she is on offical leave now. She has offred for me still to see her were she can once a week through the holidays and still to email, but asked in a very unappropriate tone to keep it to once a day. That actually hurt. I emailed her and asked her why she waited till I was about to leave to tell me all this, when she knows how I feel.. She hasn't replied yet.

I am going through the darkest time of my life right now - have lost everything and marraige is in trouble and also trying to deal with multipule past traumas (LOTS OF THEM). I cant even work because i have isolated myself to my room. And I dont want to move.

I have a good t, but this is getting too much for me! and I feel like a burden to her and that she thinks we aren't getting anywhere. maybe I cant be fix???