I wish so much your inner child could get all the care she needs, as I have one, too. But I will admit that it helps me deal with excess pain to get red-faced angry. I beat on a stack of newspapers and yell and cuss and really get into the rage. That does give me some long-lasting relief, even tho I know it's just loving care my inner child is wanting from my T. The anger is at least strengthening, tho I don't take it out on T.