Hey,
I read this last night and found it proper mind boggling - so much so it has prompted my first post! Just to say, of course you should be able to be and feel in control, whether in respect to time but also particularly with regards to what issues are covered and how you first broach them. But really I am baffled and intrigued by this so called therapy you had as a kid. Sounds like that would screw anyone up! It seems very unethical, unhealthy and even abusive. I hope your current therapy goes some way to rectifying that...