I just wanted to share with you a bit of today's session. As you may have read elsewhere, life is currently.... eventful for me (and that's the understatement of the century), with a lot at stake, a lot of uncertainty, fear and changes, that will impact my personal and professional life as well as my therapy.
I arrived to today's session just.... emotionally drained, exhausted from the roller-coaster of the past few days, the constant crying, fighting, fear and tension, and the panic over the "abandonment" by my T. So I was not able to do "good, efficient" therapy, as I usually try, just did not have the energy for that.

It happened that I had brought a children's book we had mentioned before so that my T could read it. I asked whether we could read it together, so we did that, reading it, my T sitting by my side. It was a very.... soothing, reassuring moment of connection, of just being aware of the relationship and relying on it for a moment of support.

I am very glad my T accepted to do this "indirect" therapy, because it was what I needed at that time: a moment of safety.

I don't know if you have moments like that, but... I wanted to share in case any of you can relate or the courage to ask for it.