"They are in great pain and that’s because they are paying attention."
This answers a BIG question for me. Once I asked Quick T ( thats how I refer to her) why she doesn't prescribe meds for me. In her best Doctor tone she responded, "Do you want meds?" I said, "No, I guess not. (I just wanted to find an easier way to do therapy.) Some months later in the midst of doing the HARD work, and thinking about suicide (not like me to think that way), I asked her again, "So many people take meds, why can't you prescribe them to me. I am in so much pain." She said, "Mayo, don't be afraid of your thoughts. If you are acting on your thoughts, that is clearly something else, and you MUST tell me." I emphatically told Quick T that I need to STOP the pain!" "It is interfering and ruining my life!" She told me that I am resillient and that I need to feel the pain in order to process... I thought she was just being a tough T, but now I understand a little bit more. My one confusion, I believe the pain I have comes from shame and fear. So maybe Quick T is asking me to face that. I have no clue about how to do that, or maybe that is what the whole process is about, idk, rambling now. So, thanks for posting this terrific article, Liffey.