I usually go for counseling every week, but this past week it was cancelled. I've been having more meltdowns, and I feel completely empty. I've been dealing with meltdowns for so long, and I am so TIRED of them. How long does it take to get better? I was raised in an abusive home for many years until I escaped a few years ago. I hate hurting so much, I hate feeling like my guts are twisted up into a knot, I hate not being able to live life like a normal person.