I am glad that the hardest part is over for you Charlotte. Would you throw something at me if I told you I was nervous for you?
Not because I thought for one minute that confronting this was a bad idea, but because I know how frightening it all can be. I must say that it sounds like your T took it all in a very warm and understanding manner and most importantly that he is going to maintain a highly professional level about your feelings. I love how he reassured you that the feeling is not mutual. While to some degree that may seem cold, it is a good indication that you can really trust him. You have a safe place to go with all these emotions and now you can begin to work through them. I am happy for you.
I look forward to hearing more later. But for now I must get ready for my last appointment with my T for 3 weeks! UGH!
JM