I think that's really good news about your T!! That sounds so hopeful and positive, and I imagine it must be so relieving to have heard that from her. I really hope you don't remove account!! please stay
I don't see anything to feel stupid about, I think all of your posts and threads are so insightful, I love reading them. So many are rooting for you turtle. I also struggle SO SO much with shame and stigma (as you mentioned earlier in thread) when it comes to any diagnosis I get. (I haven't gotten BPD diagnosis, but I haven't had a thorough enough assessment to rule it out either, imo) But even with C-ptsd I struggle with stigma feelings. For me, I have to constantly remember that there is truly nothing to be ashamed of, and any disorder does not define who you are, just like someone with a physical illness. The truth is, I really believe that those who have survived trauma and continued to forge a life of healing afterwards are some of the most remarkable people on earth. The bravest, strongest, most empathetic souls you will ever meet. (that includes you!!) I think society in general will always have strange and ever changing standards for how they view.. well, everything. Standards for beauty are ever changing, fads come and go on a whim. But they will catch up soon I believe on understanding the things they currently stigmatize. And I'm beginning to realize that the people who really matter are the ones who don't come with judgments and expectations to begin with.
I am excited to hear of your work with new T
AH