I printed out some of this so I can read it again when I get suspicious and scared. You are so right that we are extra vigilant to every move and possible motive of our therapist. And I do hope I can get through some shortcomings, faults, or lapses of memory of my T. Yes, this is the hardest work in the world.
I wish I could have email privilege to help me with misunderstandings or suspicions between (roughly weekly) sessions, but I go to a large county clinic that can't handle much in the way of extra requests. Your post is helping me a lot to deal with this stage.