I want to report that I just had a strange experience with my T yesterday, one where I would have expected her to cry, and she still didn't. She thought one of her clients had SU'd (it turns out the client didn't succeed and is ok for now, but at the time of our discussion T believed that client to most likely be dead). It was a client she'd had for a long time. I guess I sort of wanted my T to show stronger outward grief, to demonstrate how deep her caring went for her clients. Clearly the client was on her mind, yet T seemed rather in control of herself.

Maybe I was wrong to expect tears. I mean, I know I have a hard time feeling emotions publicly and tend to grieve in private. A T might be even more guarded in an effort to be professional. And also, the first stage of grief is numbness and denial, right? But it made me wonder if T ever, ever cries even in her personal life. When she got home from work last night, did she finally crash and let the tears come, or were there still none to be had? Does a T have to be calloused and detached in order to survive the emotional ups and downs that clients bring to the office each day?