Thanks for your kind words and hugs,

they mean a lot to me. It is night now where I live and I am in work, I am so much tired and just getting to come to terms with this. I feel so tired I just don´t want to go to work tomorrow and I just struggling, just more by what he said really.

I am can say I have for some time talk to a friend and she told me she would never ever put up with what my T has been doing for some time. How he has said I could call and not answer or return my calls when we agreed I could call.

And cancel repeated appointments’ last winter. I feel like I have been staking him because I did always call the week after when he did not return our scheduled call. I feel now so much fool..

I felt for many months like I had to beg him to talk to me, my T has had some kind a meltdown on me before. I did beg him that I could call after 2 weeks and now I just don´t see the point, I just extremely hurt and his words hurt me.

He said ok """"call then after 2 weeks I have to go "" (and my T almost hang up on me) "". We take it from there,. But I am not ok with this and I want this over ok bye "" my T words. ..