P. Snape, your post is very honest and a bit humorous, too, the way you let it all out. Let me say, it's really great of you, too, that it bothers you to want a married woman.

I wish I could be so honest with my T. I'm sure this honesty is going to result in good accomplishment of your therapy goals!
I'm jealous of my T, too, tho she's a woman and I am too, but I understand it's really not about sex. It's just that we expect any strong love feeling to be sexual because we were brought up that way. But it isn't primarily about sex at all.