Is this dissociation?

armoredheartMember

Ever since I can remember, at times when I was in abusive situations I would pick some song that I know (not the same one each time, usually the most recent song I've heard) and I would get it stuck in my head.

And by stuck in my head I mean, I would hear it over and over and especially the lyrics would repeat over and over until focusing on it drowned out everything else, especially whatever feelings I was trying to avoid in that moment.

Now when I am very stressed or anxious or in pain, the same thing happens, and I can't stop it. It drives me crazy because it's so hard for me to focus on anything when it happens. But I'm pretty sure it is an old defense mechanism kicking in and trying to drown out my feelings.

Has this happened to anyone else? Or something similar? Am I just weird?

9/14/142:04 PM

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