I can only imagine (and I may be completely wrong) if I were in your situation I'd be hoping my T would contact me and try to convince me to stay - as a form of reassurance that hey, she did care and hey, I'm not a 'bad seed'.
Just want you to know you're not flawed and not 'toxic'- you're hurting and have been hurt. And if your T gives you space it's likely that she is respecting yr decision to terminate therapy and doesn't want to hurt you further by being seen to pressure you to come back. She won't want to make you hurt further.