Yes you have definately given me something to ponder. About trauma bonding and how our brains are hardwired to be attracted to people who are like our abusers. I always thought this was always all transference, all about me not perceiving my own perceptions correctly and trusting them, but yesterday really shone a whole new light on this whole therapuetic dynamic between T and I. I am becoming more and more questioning of myself and my own motives, and really deep inside, I am feeling myself separate internally and emotionally from my T. I can feel it taking place and I am moving to a place to where I will move out of therapy with her. I don't feel as attached to her as I used to, I don't feel dependent on her as much and have the desire to unattach for safety reasons. To protect myself... and that is ok.
Beestung... yeah gaslighting to the max!