Hi Cat,

I am sorry you are having troubles with your eating behaviors. Eating disorders are so hard because it is something we have to deal with just to survive.

I too struggle with eating behaviors in general. Everything in my life and my emotional world can seem to being ok, but the actual eating behaviors (or should I say not eating behaviors) can still be crazy.

For me not eating and restricting usually goes hand in hand with feeling out of control or powerless in some area of my life. Certainly a new relationship and issues surrounding sexuality with ED clients can be a trigger.

If you are obsessing with body image, number on the scale and appearance, perhaps check into areas where you might not feel a sense of control if that is a trigger for you.

For getting back on track with the actual eating behavior (i am anorexic). I sit with my ED T and make a menu for the week and sometimes even prepare my meals in advance and freeze them so that I don't have to deal with preparing food each day. It just makes it easier.

For me these days it seems to be less about weight, body image, and appearance but more about recognizing my actual eating behaviors.

Don't know if this helps.