Thank you for your response. Yes I am aware of what making that statement will do to my marriage.... that is why I am going regardless.
I am sure I will find a way as I will have no say or no choice in the long run, but I know myself too and if I go, and if I do not adequate support I will destroy myself and in turn resent and destroy my marriage.
It is sad, but I just have to let it happen. I owe my husband at least this much.