Thank you all for your support. I still have not figured out how to post in the proper place. ultaviolet;I agree with YOUR diagnosis. I found an interesting website called INTERNET OF THE MIND. If you are anything like me and have to understand how your brain works, this is a good one.I realize there is no way I can go in thereapy and have to relive the aggravation of childhood. Yes it was bad, yes it hurt, but I do not wish to go that route.I am guessing my parents did the best they could and no it was not what worked for me.

I wish it could have been better, but it wasn't. I understand how it affected me. I also understand it is within my power to change it. But when you get into therapy the labels seem to help the therapist more than the patient. And if you even tell the therapist how you want to go about it, they look at you like you just stepped on their face. I am rambling.